My heart had been pounding for several hours during the night, but I was able to sleep at last. But in the morning when I took my dog out, I was out of breath and faint, and realized I couldn't stand on my own. It was one of those moments in which I knew as soon as I called the advice nurse I'd be heading to the ER.
My husband took me to Kaiser and stayed with me, even though I had the best care possible. I told him it was okay for him to go to work and I got the "look" that said he wasn't going anywhere :-) Well, except to the cafeteria to get breakfast for me.
Not that I faced my own mortality yesterday, but we have an American aversion to facing our mortality and death in general. But the truth is we'll be here for a time, and then we won't.
What do you value? What do you want to do with your time here? How do you want to treat your beloved and be treated by her/him? What do you want to teach your children? What will you regret at the end of your days if you don't do certain things? What matters to you? How do you want to make an impact--on even one person?
If you haven't yet, learn the language of feelings and let people in your life know you love and care about them--or are annoyed by a behavior. Be your authentic self at home and at work; that way people can love who you actually are and appreciate you.
If your life or relationships need work, get to it--today.
Thank you for reading my posts, it means so much to me. I hope they help you navigate your relationships.
It's a little intimidating to share this health issue with you, but I plan to follow my own advice and be authentic and transparent.
Happy New Year!